...but more intimate
I remember when starting my second ever ttrpg group, one of my players, when invited, asked me who else we were going to play with. "You know, because playing rpgs is like sex, but more intimate". I hadn't thought about this for a long while, but it peeked into my mind after reading Weird Writer's lovely post. I think I believed that for a while, even if it was meant to come out as something funny, or just a one-liner. Maybe I still do.
Seeing how people were posting their stuff from the sex bandwagon made me think I could contribute, and even though the concept of a Mythic Bastionland knight based around sex, intimacy and romance, has been dancing around my mind for a couple of days now, I can't bring myself to write it. My insecurities don't let me. I keep thinking of how to treat the topic properly, how to evoke it with my writing, how to make it feel... sincere?
My play often doesn't include sex. I feel like I tip-toe around it and pretend it's real. It's a bit weird how something so natural becomes so hard to integrate in my fantasy worlds, right? So I started writing this thinking about how I would disprove that one-liner from years ago, how I treat play as play and it's not really something intimate anymore, but I guess I actually proved myself wrong. The fact that I can chat with friends about sexuality but not include it in my make-believe dice-rolling sessions makes me think I'm either lying to my friends or lying to my games, and it's scary to think that maybe it's both.
There is a part of me that wants to end this post on a statement, with an ultimatum of some sort, a spark to kindle an interesting discussion. I won't. You're free to interpret this as a very silly innuendo.
anb
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